Saturday, October 24, 2009

colbie caillat

don't you realize that I hate you at all? don't you realize that every time I see you I wanna punch you in the face till you bruise, but I never wanna stop seeing at you? don't you realize that every time you talk sounds like whole bullshit in my ear and that it always make me wanna cry? don't you realize that I always miss the old times we had together and then drops tears afterwards? don't you realize that I'm struggling to trust you but you proved nothing but that it wasn't worth it? don't you realize that I try my best not to care about you and it's hard but I guess I'm doing well? don't you realize that all my laughter when I'm around you is fake now? don't you realize that I wish she would have never existed? don't you realize that I'm still longing for maybe a chance to get back to where we were in next 9 months but then I realize it would never be as it was? don't you realize that now everything reminds me of you totally hurt? and that I'm saying all over again that I want you to move on you think it doesn't hurt? I just simply do not enjoy this circumstance, do you realize that? Do you even care? Do you realize that you do care?

Do you?

LINGER
by of course The Cranberries

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn, don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart
It's ruining everything

I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand?
Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time?
Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep...
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, I was wrong

If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

But I'm in so deep...
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep...
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger?


A pile of song quotations

That I enjoy listening to music is undeniable, as well as seek thorough its lyrics and find some quotable sentences. Check my work out:

Everybody's looking for something: some of them wants to use you, some of them wants to be used by you; some of them wants to abuse you, some of them wants to be abused.

Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams




I can just see you with a baby on the way. I can just see you when your hair starts turning grey. What I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love you more.

Brad Paisley - Then





But it's not so bad; you're just the best I ever had. You don't want me back; you're just the best I ever had.

Gary Allan - Best I ever had




I live for glitter, not you

Mika - We are golden





I love you forever; forever is over.

Boys like girls - Love drunk





Okay guys, it's 90210 time, I will probably continue later :p

Please don't

DON'T BOTHER
I know it's an old song by Shakira

She's got the kind of look that defies gravity
She's the greatest cook
And she's fat free

She's been to private school
And she speaks perfect French
She's got the perfect friends
Oh isn't she cool?

She practices Tai Chi
She'd never lose her nerve
She's more than you deserve
She's just far better than me


Hey hey

So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry

And don't bother
I'll be fine
But she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind

I'm sure she doesn't know
How to touch you like I would
I beat her at that one good
Don't you think so?

She's almost 6 feet tall
She must think I'm a flea
I'm really a cat you see
And it's not my last life at all

Hey hey

So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry

And don't bother
I'll be fine
But she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind

For you, I'd give up all I own
And move to a communist country
If you came with me, of course
And I'd file my nails so they don't hurt you
And lose those pounds, and learn about football
If it made you stay, but you won't, but you won't

So don't bother,
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine
Promise you won't ever see me cry

And after all I'm glad that I'm not your type
Promise you won't ever see me cry

So don't bother,
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine
Promise you won't ever see me cry

And after all I'm glad that I'm not your type, not your type, not your type, not your type
Promise you won't ever see me cry

Vanilla

VANILLA TWILIGHT
by Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly


I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here

Number 2 in my top played playlist and it's a wee bit cry-some :')

Shades of black

MANY SHADES OF BLACK
be sure to have the Adele and the Raconteurs version

Go ahead
Go ahead
and smash it on the floor

Take whatever's left
and take it with you out the door

See if I cry
See if I shed a single sorry tear
I can't say
that it's been that great
No
In fact it's been a wasted year

Everybody sees and everyone agrees
that you and I are wrong

And it's been that way too long
Take it as it comes
and be thankful when it's done

There's so many ways to act
and there's many shades of black
There's so many shades of black
There's so many shades of black
Yeah
Yeah

Let it out
Lett it all out
Say what's on your mind
You can kick and scream
And shout and say things
that are so unkind

Yeah
See if I care
And see if I stand firm
or if I fall

'Cause in the back of my mind
And on the tip of my tongue
is the answer to it all

Everybody sees and everyone agrees
that you and I are wrong
And it's been that way too long
Take it as it comes
and be thankful when it's done
There's so many ways to act
and there's many shades of black
There's many shades of black
Yeah
There's many shades of black

Oh
Oh

Yeah
Everybody sees and everyone agrees
that you and I are wrong
And it's been that way too long
Baby take it as it comes
and be thankful when it's done
There's so many ways to act
and you cannot take it back
(Many shades of black)
No
You cannot take it back

'Cause there's many shades of black
(Many shades of black)
You have many shades of black
You have many
(Many shades of black)
You have many
You have many shades of black

'Cause there's many shades of black
There's so many shades of black
(Many shades of black)
There's so many shades of black
There's so many shades of black

Yeah
Oh
Oh
Oh


My most recent number one in most played playlist :)

Award

Big thanks to my dearest visionary leader Afina Raida Vinci for giving me this award :) (she's hot inside, believe me)

peraturannya :
1.
banner gambar tidak boleh diubah; baik tulisan, warna atau signaturenya tapi kalau resize gambar boleh
2. tuliskan siapa yang kasih award dan urlnya
3. pilih 10 fe
male blogger yang kamu kenal dan belum menerima award ini, dan sebutkan alasan kenapa kamu pikir mereka pantas menerima award ini!

Soooo these girls are in my list:
1. Karine Annisa Prakasita, no one beats her 'heat' :p
2. Stefanie Anggadita Wijaya, she's pretty, model-like, and fashionable as in very fashionable!
3. Fiosanda Rizky Nugrahanti, she's just so cute hehe
4. Dara Ninggar Ghassani, a combination of smartness and charm I guess
5. Esther Hannateta Daniel, she's just fiery :p
6. Intan Fitrianti, cz she's so pretty :)
7. Adiar Ersti Mardisiwi, she likes the color red (okay, awkward reason)
8. Septi Andara, simply because she's cute and lovable I guess :)
9. Winny Irmarooke, she's pretty!
and...
10. MISS TYKA! hottest smala teacher alive hahahaha :p

Cheers! :)

Monday, October 19, 2009

October playlist :}

A mixture of cartoonic blends of Mika with dance tempting beats of eurythmics, shakira, and also tiesto, you can say this playlist is unlike my regular playlists :)


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Saturday, October 17, 2009

3 lists

List three of your latest phones:
1. iPhone 3G (current)
2. Nokia n81 (current)
3. Motorola razr v3 (stolen!)

List three of your latest ex(es):
1. Muhammad
2. Raden
3. Reza

List three of your current obsessions:
1. FK UNAIR
2. get through a misery
3. studying about lies

List three of things you currently love the most:
1. pillow
2. ssc book
3. macbook air

List three of your latest/recent PC/laptops:
1. MacBook Air (current)
2. Acer TravelMate special edition (current)
3. (never existed)

List three of your most recent favorite songs:
1. gnarls barkley - crazy
2. jason mraz - make it mine
3. rihanna - take a bow

List three of your last beverages:
1. choco milk
2. tea
3. mineral water

List three of most recent movies you watched in a cinema:
1. star wars
2. g.i joe (LEAST ENJOYED)
3. final destination 4 (not a good movie at all)

List three of your current or latest reading list:
1. Shakespeare's Antony and Cleopatra
2. Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet
3. Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing

List three things disappointed you lately:
1. him
2. him
3. him

List three places you would like to visit the most:
1. new york
2. los angeles
3. virgin beaches
:(

List three words best describe you:
1. cold
2. indifferent
3. pessimistic
right?

List three of your most favorite names:
1. Jade Ayres
2. Faylizabeth
3. Adam

List three games you enjoy the most:
1. The Sims
2. Harvest Moon
3. Love game :p (it's a song, Lady GaGa's)

List three places when you found best cheesy dishes:
1. Sheraton's cheese cake
2. Korean Air, Cled'or premium cheese cake ice cream with strawberry pieces
3. no more idea

List three of your wishes:
1. got accepted into medical studies faculty of university of airlangga in 2010 through pmdk prestasi of snmptn
2. finish my senior year very very very much successfully
3. get a boyfriend lol :p

ferris wheel ride

Yang, filmnya lagi bagus" looooh! Proposal udah keluar! Pengen nonton sama kamuuuu x)

I can't believe that was what I thinking when I was reading the newspaper.
Wake up! Who are you talking to?
There won't be dreamy ferris wheel ride anymore. Not with me.. probably.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

cinta jare

okay, this maybe lame, and pathetic, and in Indonesian that maybe some of you can't understand. But this is totally true. I myself copied it from a friend. Here you go (I promise I'll translate, later)

1. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, tidak bisa memberikan alasan mengapa, ia mencintaimu. Dia hanya tahu, dimata dia, kamulah satu satunya…

2. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, sebenarnya selalu membuatmu marah, gila, jengkel, stress. Tapi ia tidak pernah tahu hal bodoh apa yang sudah ia lakukan, karena semua yang ia lakukan adalah untuk kebaikanmu…

3. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, jarang memujimu, tetapi di dalam hatinya kamu adalah yang terbaik, hanya ia yang tahu…

4. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, akan marah-marah atau mengeluh jika kamu tidak membalas pesannya atau telp-nya, karena ia peduli dan ia tidak ingin sesuatu terjadi ke kamu…

5. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, hanya menjatuhkan airmatanya dihadapanmu. Ketika kamu mencoba untuk menghapus air matanya, kamu telah menyentuh hatinya, dimana hatinya selalu berdegup, berdenyut, bergetar untuk kamu…

6. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, akan mengingat setiap kata yg kamu ucapkan, bahkan yang tidak sengaja dan ia akan selalu menggunakan kata2 itu tepat waktunya…

7. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, tidak akan memberikan janji apapun dengan mudah, karena ia tidak mau mengingkari janjinya. Ia ingin kamu untuk mempercayainya dan ia ingin memberikan hidup yang paling bahagia dan aman selama-lamanya…

8. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, mungkin tidak bisa mengingat kejadian atau kesempatan istimewa, seperti perayaan hari ulang tahunmu, tapi ia tahu bahwa setiap detik yang ia lalui, ia mencintai kamu, tidak peduli hari apakah hari ini…

9. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, tidak mau berkata Aku mencintaimu dengan mudah, karena segalanya yang ia lakukan untuk kamu adalah untuk menunjukkan bahwa ia siap mencintaimu, tetapi hanya ia yg akan mengatakan kata “I LOVE YOU” pada situasi yang spesial, karena ia tidak mau kamu salah mengerti, dia mau kamu mengetahui bahwa ia mencintai dirimu…

10. Seseorang yang benar - benar mencintai kamu, akan merasa bahwa sesuatu harus dikatakan sekali saja, karena ia berpikir bahwa kamu telah mengerti dirinya. Jika berkata terlalu banyak, ia akan merasa bahwa tidak ada yang akan membuatnya bahagia dan tersenyum…

11. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, akan pergi ke airport untuk menjemput kamu, dia tidak akan membawa seikat mawar dan memanggilmu sayang seperti yang kamu harapkan. Tetapi, ia akan membawakan kopermu dan menanyakan : “Mengapa kamu menjadi lebih kurus dalam waktu 2 hari?” Dengan hatinya yang tulus…

12. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, tidak tahu apakah ia harus menelponmu ketika kamu marah, tetapi ia akan mengirimkan pesan setelah beberapa jam. Jika kamu menanyakan : mengapa ia telat menelepon, ia akan berkata : Ketika kamu marah, penjelasan dari dirinya semua hanyalah sampah. Tetapi, ketika kamu sudah tenang, penjelasannya baru akan benar - benar bekerja dan berguna…

13. Seseorang yang mencintaimu, akan selalu menyimpan semua benda - benda yang telah kamu berikan, bahkan kertas kecil bertuliskan ‘I LOVE YOU’ ada didalam dompetnya…

14. Seseorang yang mencintaimu, jarang mengatakan kata - kata manis. Tapi kamu tahu, ‘perhatiannya’ sudah menyalurkan semua…

15. Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, akan selalu berusaha membuat mu tersenyum dan tertawa walau terkadang caranya membingungkanmu…

16. Seseorang yang mencintaimu, akan membalut hatimu yang pernah terluka dan menjaganya dengan setulus hati agar tidak terluka lagi dan ia akan memberikanmu yang terbaik walau harus menyakiti hatinya sendiri…

17. Seseorang yang mencintaimu, akan rela melepaskanmu pergi bila bersamanya kamu tidak bahagia dan ia akan ikut bahagia walau kamu yang dicintainya bahagia bersama orang lain…



Jika dia tak pernah merindukanmu, tapi kamu tetap mengasihininya itulah cinta …

Jika kamu telah dikhianatinya tapi kamu bersedia menerimanya kembali itulah cinta..

Jika hatimu begitu memaafkannya dengan tulus itulah cinta …

Jika hatimu begitu menderita karenanya, kamu tetap mendokan kebahagiaan untuknya itulah cinta …

Jika hatimu menangis karena tak sanggup kehilangannya, tapi kamu mengantar kepergiannya dengan senyum itulah cinta ….

pedih tapi jernih ….
sulit tapi indah ….
terluka tapi mulia …

So, translated yet? Be sure you have..

Shakespeare knows

ROMEO AND JULIET by William Shakespeare

ACT 1
scene 4
(Romeo, Mercutio)

ROM: Is love a tender thing? It is too rough, too rude, too boist'rous, and it pricks like thorns

MER: If love be rough to you, be rough to love. Prick love for pricking, and you beat love down.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

you know what? I AM ENJOYING MY LIFE :)

Playlist

I call this, break up playlist lol!

For the beginning of the break up:

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone as at the end of September
Alanis Morissette - Not As We my reflection of the 9 months before I graduate as he said he'd wait, but I'm not planning to count that in anymore
Carrie Underwood - I Told You So which is not my kinda song at all, but he introduced me to this song and it's kinda touching
Gary Allan - Best I Ever Had which is old yet lovely
Beverley Knight - No Man's Land which is exactly what was on my mind
Mr Big - Wild World oh boy
Rob Thomas - Her Diamonds which is exactly me, dunno about him

And for the most recent favorites of mine:
Mika - We Are Golden totally jolting my mood up!
Shakira - Don't Bother which is all the things I wanna say!
Boys Like Girls - Love Drunk yeaaaah!
Kings of Leons - Use Somebody crackin good rock
Owl City - Fireflies everybody's favorite
Shakira - La Loba makes me wanna dance
aaaaand
Natalie Imbruglia - Want :) for the goal I've set, I guess, suggested by all ma besties!

They're all recommended for you ;]

2009 break up

Hey people. Remember that I once fell in love with a guy on April 20th and started dating with him on April 30th? And remember how crazy in love we were? Well, we broke up on Sept 2nd, 6 days before my birthday, and we had some kind of hook up relationship until September ends.

Anybody knows how I feel?

Devastatingly broken hearted, of course.

But broken hearts are normal, aren't they? And anyway we think that that would be the best. But the real reason is what I can't say cause I'm not sure anymore actually... But to tell you what, I was terribly jealous. Well maybe he's kinda sick of me or bored, I don't know. About moving on... I can't tell either. I might move on, well. I might not either.

But the best thing is, I decided to focus on my studies :)

Even though everytime I recall about him and how we used to be and how he is now, I was truly hurt, and it somehow gets me kinda stressed (this is truly overrating), but Imma be alright :)

And I also remember Ste's advice (I learned this today) that, he's just probably not worth it yet, not now :)

And guess what, I might be just over confidence or so, but now more boys are after me :p



P.s.: I don't go facebook-ing anymore, enjoying twitter instead (even though he and probably his current crush is destroying my mood everytime I get into twitter now)
P.s.s.: I might be posting about a lot of lyrics after this