14.14

I am in no mood for doing anything, but crying.

13.13

Meet me when the school ends, LC :(

Translated

Hey! I was just looking over my old posts and I remembered that I promised to translate the post about someone who loves you whatsoever. I'm fulfilling my promise :) But because I don't feel like writing he/she, I'd write 'he' only instead :p enjoy :)

1. Someone who loves you can't give the reason of loving you. All he knows, in his eyes, you're the only one.

2. Someone who loves you would only drive you mad, crazy, sick, and stressed instead. But he won't realize all those things he'd done cz he did it all for your best.

3. Someone who loves you won't compliment you so often, But in his heart, you're the best. It's just that he's the only one who knows it best.

4. Someone who loves you will get mad and complain to you when you don't reply his texts or his calls, bcz he cares and he doesn't want anything bad to happen to you.

5. Someone who loves you would just pour his tears down in front of you. When you try to wipe it, you've touched his heart, where his heart would always beat for you.

6. Someone who loves you would recall every of the words you said, even the unintendedly ones, and he'd use them just at the right time.

7. Someone who loves you won't promise you anything so easily, bcz he doesn't want to fail in fulfilling the promises. He wants you to trust him and he wants to give you the happiest life ever after.

8. Someone who loves you maybe won't remember all the special occasion like your birthday, but he knows it every second he passes that he loves you, no matter what day it is.

9. Someone who loves you won't say 'I love you' easily, bcz everything he does for you is how to show that he's ready to love you, but he'll just say 'I love you' in a special sitch, bcz he doesn't want you to get it wrong, he wants you to know that he loves you.

10. Someone who loves you would know that a thing should just be said once, bcz he thinks that you know him. If he says too much, he'll feel that no one's gonna make him happy and bring him into smiling.

11. Someone who loves you would be off to the airport to pick you up, and he won't bring a bouquet of roses and call you sweetheart like how you wanted. But he'll pick up your suitcases and ask: 'How come you get slimmer in 2 days?' sincerely.

12. Someone who loves you doesn't know if he has to call you when you're in rage, but he'll send you a message after a couple of hours. When you ask him: 'Why're you late to call?' he'd answer: 'When you're mad, my explanation would end up in vain. But when you're calm, it'll work'

13. Someone who loves you would save up even the littlest thing you've ever given to him, even a tiny piece of paper with 'I love you' on it. You'd find it in his wallet.

14. Someone who loves you barely talk sweetly. But you know his attention shows everything.

15. Someone who loves you would always try to make you smile even though you'd feel awkward in how he does that at times.

16. Someone who loves you would wrap your hurted heart and keep it sincerely and honestly so the cut won't open and he'd give you the best even though he has to hurt himself.

17. Someone who loves you would let you go with some other guy when you're not happy and he'd be happy when you're happy, even with someone else.



If he never misses you, but you still care about him that's love.

If he betrayed you but you accept him back sincerely that's love.

If you forgive him so sincerely that's love.

If you become sooooo suffering because of him but you still pray for his happiness that's love.

If your heart cries bcz you can't lose him but you still smile for him when he's about to go that's love.

painful but pure
hard but beautiful
hurts but noble
that's love.


OKAY people let's get back to reality. After reading through this post once again, I actually have my own ideas actually, that would mark out some points in this article. Because after reading it once again I realize that it's too angelic that people would call it stupid.

5. Someone who loves you would just pour his tears down in front of you. When you try to wipe it, you've touched his heart, where his heart would always beat for you.

Okay let's face it. This sounds way too imaginary and surreal. How could you touch someone's heart by wiping those tears that the cause might even just be you? lol! Start making her smile, don't just wipe those tears, let it all out, and be happy! :D

7. Someone who loves you won't promise you anything so easily, bcz he doesn't want to fail in fulfilling the promises. He wants you to trust him and he wants to give you the happiest life ever after.

Well when you want someone to trust you, then you have to prove it. Believing something against all the facts would be just plain stupid. And the ending part of the sentence sucks since it sounds so cliche.

9. Someone who loves you won't say 'I love you' easily, bcz everything he does for you is how to show that he's ready to love you, but he'll just say 'I love you' in a special sitch, bcz he doesn't want you to get it wrong, he wants you to know that he loves you.

I can't see where it's going!

12. Someone who loves you doesn't know if he has to call you when you're in rage, but he'll send you a message after a couple of hours. When you ask him: 'Why're you late to call?' he'd answer: 'When you're mad, my explanation would end up in vain. But when you're calm, it'll work'

Nah, once again, I don't see the point.

If he betrayed you but you accept him back sincerely that's love.

And that way love is pure stupidity.


And also, besides pointing out some disagreeing parts of the article, I also want you to know that the sentences in purple are the sentences I like, but I don't like their way of saying. The sentences in red are the sentences I adore. And the sentences in bold red are the sentences I love the most! :D

Tom is always a...

PUZZLE. The same bench warmer I first saw him as. The still encantador. The staying a question in my mind. He's the questioning sentence, and I complete it with a question mark. We're heroes of each other. The one I run to when I'm down, and the effing only one to make me laugh. And I'm the one he runs to when he's down, and the effing only one to make him laugh. Tom is said to be my crush but no he's not. I used to be craving for his attention while I'm now ignoring all his chuckles. The dirtily genius guy I'd die being where he is. Tom stays a cushion to squeeze, to wipe all the tears, to gladly accept your worst kind of look, and to calm you down in a calm sleep night when you've stayed restless for a week. A cushion doesn't lie to you; it gives you its best just when you need it, even the meanest truth but a truth is a truth and that's all we need. Tom is the best, my best, my effin best. He gives the best curiosity of what he means by subjecting to missing you. He gives the best mindblow when he said that he enjoys being with you more than the one he loves. Tom gives you the best sarcasm you'd be confused about laughing along with him or drawing a sour frown on your face. And when you decide to look sad he'll make it up to you with the best way someone could ever come up with. Tom is the only one who you can come up with the idea to sing 'Yellow' to, or to be sung 'Yellow' by, while you're wishing your lovely jerk to sing you 'Shiver'. Tom is a delicate pleasure you'd feel guilty to eat because you love another guy and you don't want to lose him as your effin best, so much bester than any jerk you're in love with. But then you'll feel insecure about giving him empty hopes and you decide to let him be by his own for a while. And I should tell you, that is the time when you completely got nothing to hold on to. No effing single thing. And don't you ever think of doing that for some jerk you think you're in love with. You're more in love with Tom at a time, and you never want him to be yours, because you love him not the way you love those jerks. And you take Tom for granted just how you took your psycho ex who'd die to get you back and you hold on to your wishes to be all your lovely jerk's. And you take Tom for granted. You take Tom for granted..

Don't you ever take Tom for granted.

The Story of Angie and Ardy

Angie: How could you be so naive. If you like a girl, don't text with other girls. The one you like, while she likes you too, of course would get hurt..
Ardy: Oh sorry, Angie. I didn't know that it's not fine :( I won't do that again.

Oh yes it's always been happy for Angie to have someone like him. And it's never been happy for me to have someone like the one who's texting another girl thousands of times everyday and calling her timely in a week over nights and talking about stupid sweet things I would wish to hear and talking about things I never knew and always requiring to be trusted when there's no single proof supporting all the things said and never trying to stop doing things killing me no matter how dying I'm trying to make him understand but he's just not that guy. He's just not that guy. And I sadly am in love with him, if not in terrible hatred. And no I don't even have him like how I said firstly above.

And I thought I had that sister I never had but my dearly sister is also killing me along. And it's cliche but the truth hurts and the truth is that no I have no one.

But exactly, I prefer truth in a bloody obvious way and, I need no one instead.

New Layout

Aaaah that girl on my page is soooooo cute isn't she? :> Thanks Teta for using Debscraft's layout and I also thank Debscraft for this awesome layout :)

Official Statement

I, Primasitha Maharani Harsoyo Putri, hereby officially stating that starting from this second, I will ban every unimportant thought that only saddens and is not empowering nor encouraging me in anyhow.

Blabbers

Yes, the truth is that I hate the fact that you two are close, and the fact that you don't wanna lose her, not even for me (and who the heck am I? LOL).
Okay, done.

Positive

People, think positively. After all this time I realized how I've been thinking too realistically (and by realistic most people would rather say it pessimistic) so since last week I started to think more positively. I tried my best to trust people (ugh, one person in particular), tried my best to be patient in waiting for a promise to be fulfilled, and tried to be back to be how I was: cheerful and bright. Well people, it's hard, in fact, for people like me to do that, since I don't do what heart tells (I truly think that it is stupid) and I go with my precise ideas (which is smarter). But I have to tell you that I've been living the best week since several months I've been through harshly lately. Really.

Until everything I did was completely ruined by internet, once again.

PL

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I'm Scared

by: Duffy

The blank pages
Of my diary
That I haven't touched
Since you left me
The closed blinds
In my home
See no light of day
Dust gathers
On my stereo
Cause I can't bare
To hear the radio
The piano sits
In a shaded space
With a picture
Of your face

I'm scared
To face another day
Cause the fear in me
Just won't go away
In an instant
You were gone
And I'm scared

Coffee stains
On your favorite book
Remind me of you
So I can't even look
The magazines
You left on the floor
You won't need
Them anymore

A towel left
Hangin on the wall
No sign of wet foosteps
In the hall
There's no smell
Of your sweet cologne
I'm lying here alone

I'm scared
To face another day
Cos the fear in me
Just won't go away
In an instant
You were gone
And now I'm scared

I'm scared
To face another day
Cos the fear in me
Just won't go away
In an instant
You were gone
Now I'm scared
In an instant
You were gone
And I'm scared

Kleptocracy

I was just wiki-ing on types of governments, when a term 'kleptocracy' attracted me. And when I new-tabbed it, I read this:

Transparency International ranking

In early 2004, the anti-corruption Germany-based NGO Transparency International released a list of what it believes to be the ten most self-enriching leaders in recent years.^[4]
In order of amount allegedly stolen (in USD), they are:

1. Former Indonesian President Suharto ($15 billion – $35 billion)
2. Former Philippine President Ferdinand Marcos ($5 billion – $10 billion)
3. Former Zairian President Mobutu Sese Seko ($5 billion)
4. Former Nigerian President Sani Abacha ($2 billion – $5 billion)
5. Current Ugandan President Yoweri Museveni ( $1 billion - $1.7 Billion )
6. Former Yugoslav President Slobodan Milošević ($1 billion)
7. Former Haitian President Jean-Claude Duvalier ($300 million – $800 million)
8. Former Peruvian President Alberto Fujimori ($600 million)
9. Former Ukrainian Prime Minister Pavlo Lazarenko ($114 million – $200 million)
10. Former Nicaraguan President Arnoldo Alemán ($100 million)
11. Former Philippine President Joseph Estrada ($78 million – $80 million)

Whoa! Check out the entire thread here.

Change

If you knew that you would die today,
Saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that love can break your heart
When you're down so low you cannot fall
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

If you knew that you would be alone,
Knowing right, being wrong,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would find a truth
That brings up pain that can't be soothed
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

Are you so upright you can't be bent?
If it comes to blows are you so sure you won't be crawling?
If not for the good, why risk falling?
Why risk falling?

If everything you think you know,
Makes your life unbearable,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you'd broken every rule and vow,
And hard times come to bring you down,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would die today,
If you saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you saw the face of God and love
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?

By: Tracy Chapman

The worst advice...

I've ever had and told is:

Nggak usah dipikirin
orDon't think about that

Why? That sentence can just make you even think more about it. Try it!

When you meet me...

you're gonna realize how content I am with my current life :)

Yes people, welcome me back. I'm over everything sad, and am ready to go along life-beat smiling, even if it means a jolly circumstance, slicky situatuon, or even a rough competitions ;)
So open your hands wide and grab me, or put your hands together in awhile and scheme something horrible to pull me down, cause I'm ready to face it :}

Exes

Ex(s). Be sure to have thanked God if you have them away from you. As mine(s) are never that far. I admit having feelings to one of them and I also admit that I'm flattered that the rests are always so caring. But sometimes you question yourself, why did you even break up? What's the use of it? Gee. And what if people, outta nowhere, come to you and talk about your ex's flaws, in this case, the one you still have some crumbs of feelings? Won't you feel a bit... strange? Why, if you were me, you gotta get used to it.

Soc net

Social networks are such pain in the ass! They bore me now. Don't they bore you? Well, good luck with your cyber life, I've been folding mine into a locked drawer in a closet I forgot where to put the key (oops)

Sides.

Other Side Of The World
KT Tunstall

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water

The fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

The fire fades away

Can you help me?
Can you let me go?
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore?

The fire fades away

Quote of the day

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Marylin Monroe

random

Falling :)

I think I'm in love :> but I've decided to keep him for myself only LOL. And anyway, it doesn't matter who I love, it's just how I love him :)
And for you, hey, I think I fall for you, no matter who you are, even that in the end we'll never gonna make it, I just, love you, be flattered :">

Haven't I told you that...

life is beautiful? Or that God has greater plans than we do? Well once again it's proved (along with karma, unfortunately). Now everything doesn't mean so bad anymore :)